Separable Distance

I miss you. I miss you to the point of exhaustion. My heart wrenches at the thought of you and it almost comes to the point I wish we weren’t friends so I didn’t have to miss you so much.

Love does that to a person.

At the same time you make my heart flutter and give me butterflies, you squeeze my heart and make me sick.

Dreams about you spin in my head and there isn’t a single second you’re not on my mind.

I want only the best for you even if it hurts to see you move further and further away from me. I will give you support and I will give you love, all while wanting to be selfish at the same time.

Pictures of you make me smile and want to cry and it’s almost hard to pick which to do. So I smile with pain behind it and hope you’re doing well because that’s all I can do.

I want to be with you, but I can’t, so I’ll move on. I only wish I wanted to.

You do this to me and I wonder if you know. I don’t think you do and I don’t want you to. There’s so much for you and I don’t want to compromise anything for you.

So I’ll miss you from over here and give you encouragement, and I’ll send warm thoughts and love your way.

You’re on my mind and on my heart.

I just don’t want it to weigh me down, but I’ll let it.

I guess love does that to people.


6 responses to “Separable Distance

  • VersesOfSincerity

    Love sure does do this to people, whether we want it to or not. Sometimes you have to live a little and let that person know how much you really feel for them. But up to you.Are you talking about the one who just went away for the military?

  • Stephnalamx

    @VersesOfSincerity –  Haha, that’s exactly who I’m talking about… And I have told him, kind of, how much I love and miss him… I haven’t actually, ah, told him, “I’m in love with you” and only the slightly less-serious “I love you” instead. I don’t think I want to say the other phrase to him. I’m not even sure how true that would be… I just don’t know any more with him.Blah. Sucks about as much as I thought it would. I’m worried about when we get further along in our lives…

  • VersesOfSincerity

    If your that much worried about when you both get further in your lives than maybe you should just tell him how you really feel in the serious way.

  • VersesOfSincerity

    Tell him how you really feel in the serious way you were talking about. Because if you don’t, you might not get another chance to because he might find someone else. And, if you do tell him, and he doesn’t feel the same; at least you can tell yourself, “Well at least I tried, and the feelings are out there.” You will finally feel better. You never know, he could feel the same way.

  • Stephnalamx

    @VersesOfSincerity –  But… Even if he does, it would be hard to pursue a relationship with us both being in different branches of the military. : /

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